God job. I must say, there is no short cut in this other than working it out for yourself. Others can point in the right direction but the 'work' needs to be done by yourself to get it. As for fear.... I'm not saying jump off from a cliff when you've never done a diving or swimming (so within sensible reason) but when your will is strong enough, when you are so convinced that it is the right thing to do, then nobody can interfer or throw you off course by their negativity on things. Basically, force of your will is strong that you could literally walk through fire....metaphorically. This is living your truth in a sense.
People can take a scenic route by leaving it till next life time OR like us, run as hard as we can now.
I've basically dedicated my whole time, did not indulge in playing online games....not one bit!, to study and practise in the past 7 years and I've learned a lot.
Although I am a neophyte compared to likes of Jesus but learned enough that people can't follow what I am saying....except you and few others.